![]() Now I got 28 grams of sativa, 14 grams hybrid, and 7 grams indica. Moderation seems to be trick however that is not me, got high tolerance and the reason why I take breaks. ![]() ![]() Been using it since 16 and now nearly 50. It is day one, taking a week break from Cannabis/weed. Sometimes I think maybe Boredom is a sin, or even an insult to God, because this life is supposed to be so beautiful, I know right now especially things can feel tough, but I truly believe and have faith that soon it wont be like this! Have faith, Stay positive, Stay strong, and always do your absolute best! Now Im debating to go pickup regular flower weed because again I feel bored and unfulfilled. Same bro, I feel better when I smoke, and without it I feel bored and empty, and then ask myself the usual, what can I do to make my life more fulfiling and better, but I feel like the truth is I really just rather be smoking weed because it uplifts me and inspires creativity, I have a youtube channel with 2k subs that I was happy with, but Now i want to expand more and do more! I know there is always something more to do, be happy! And go with God my friends! Find out what God means to you, doesnt mean you have to join a church or group, just find out what God and the universe means to you, what makes you happy, whats fun for you? I was at the gym last night and threw my wax pen out the window, and my vapes away. ![]() I feel very empty bored and living in reality sucks i hate the world am depressed sleep all day playing guitar and writing songs have improved but it will never be a dream that comes true so i have preetyy much abandoned it music depresses me i clean my room till theres nothing left to do i try stay away from internet and the news with so much unhelpful things to read i think about reading a book but how boring would that be iv preety much watched everything you can think off movie wise and series (gordan ramsey walking dead lost vikings masterchef soo on) im starting a course in counciling but cant really help myself soo dont really think il pass the introduction course to that since my own life id soo challenging im on 98 days today with out weed and addiction iv had since i was 14 im 27 now was heavy user and everything now seems so dark specially the way the world is today id love to change the world but cant anxiety depression lack of inspiration looking to micro dose mushrooms looking for answers meditation is good until you come out off trance back into the dark everything to me seems soo long getting help for depression getting help to look for a job il act stay in rather then rely on benifits which honestly i hate just cant work in a bar or even lift heavy things due to a inbical hernia soo 27 year old man who cant even workout or do the hard jobs because i cant lift things i feel like theres a brick wall il never get past suicide is everyday thoughts at first i saw the benifits of quitting but now i feel my emotions and feel like a empty vessel heading for nowhwere but more disapointment in life failed realtionships no relationships with friends girls yeer right im not even bad looking guy just no confidence no nothing at least weed got me past the brick wall at times im proud to say i still wont go back to weed but not proud to say that i kinda wish i could be put to sleep in a hospital bed and give my life to someone who needs it who would live there life to the fullest i would but i just dont know where to begin now that im back to being 14 years old with past emotions and deppression that didnt get resolved until i found weed that made life seem more worth living i have great family and i have food and a roof over my head but still cant shake the suicide not sure where my journey will take me but i hope it either takes me to my grave or takes me further to beleaf the getting off weed was worth it because right now i dont feel its done anything but put me into a even darker place a place i feel just so very empty and lost in a world that doesent make any sense to me
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